in breaking down

i guess when people say you need to cry and let it out.. it can be true. But i sometimes people forget that when you do let it out.. its more than just it.. its sometimes a reaffirmation over and over again of just how sad you are or sad you can get. its funny i have not had a good i broke down and the things that came out of it was an explosion of things i never knew about family members stories they had not even bothered to tell me for... i guess their own reasons.
afterwards i found myself thinking wow... so why haven't you ever told me this.. and now that i am throat deep into whatever i am into you, and i am about to drawn that when you say all this things. it never occured that it would be nice to hear stories of lows and highs much earlier in my life so i would not feel like such a failure as compared. but i guess we must all have our secrets. here is to the secrets of our families may they forever keep us in the dark.